Silent No More

So how this all started was with a picture in a magazine of this dark face with the moon in her eye. I was so drawn to that image and just had to have it. I know it might sound a little crazy but it is well documented that images have a strong connection to our soul. Well, my soul at that time was extremely distressed. I was going through a divorce, I was scared, broken, conflicted, and did I mention scared? Most of all I felt I had no voice.

I started researching imagery because it really bugged me that I was feeling such a strong connection to this image and didn’t know why. I wanted answers and well, some might think that seeing a professional would have been a good idea, but there was a huge stigma surrounding that in those days (at least in my head) and it just wasn’t my way. I really felt with a little work I could figure it out. That’s when I stumbled across using collage as therapy. So, I thought it was worth a shot because I really needed to fix myself or have a nervous breakdown which was not an option.

I got out my magazines (I LOVE magazines so I had quite a few) and started paging through looking for images that spoke to me. What I found next was the crying girl, the crumbling leaf and the hands. I knew that girl was me so that was going in the collage for sure. Next, looking at this collection of images I say to myself “So what? You’re scared, you’re crying and nobody hears you! What are you going to do about it?”

I start working the images together and I’m building a pretty cool composition and starting to get a picture of what I’m feeling but I’m not feeling all that much better. I’ve never been in therapy so I figure maybe that’s just part of the process and at least now my feelings are tangible instead of just giving me migraines, panic attacks and stomach aches. I let the picture I have resonate for awhile.  The feelings are clear and real and maybe I just need to let it settle for a bit. Back to the magazines I find the words, “dare to be heard” and “In silence I speak” and the message is getting much clearer now and I am starting to feel a little better.  That’s when I find it, the final piece, the girl stepping forward, and I know I’ve found it, I feel it in my gut. As I put her into my collage I realize I do have a voice and I am moving forward and I need to leave the crying and regret behind. I actually feel a huge weight lifting off me as I glue the last piece in place and finish my arty touches. Finally, I’m not crying and I feel like I’m actually going to be okay. Yes, really.  Believe me when I tell you, I was surprised that this actually worked but really, really glad it did. (NOTE: The process can take awhile or it can be quick and easy. This one was pretty complex and I didn’t go into my entire process here since that would have been a really long post. If you have specific questions, I’ll be happy to talk about it more.)

So anyway, that’s how it all started and I have many more pieces to share with you so I hope you will stop back often. Please visit Art & Soul and consider letting me mentor you on your journey.

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